Here I Am

Conversation is an exchange of words, sentences with at least one other person. It is  communication at a basic level. A way to get to know someone, learn about new things, give and  receive  direction. Bottom line is conversation is a base  need to grow, learn and thrive. Whether it is at school, home, work or out shopping you need to exchange words with others to learn and  receive  what you need or want. So why do I look at prayer as anything but conversation? Prayer is seen as a request, only asking, in regards to what I want or need from God. Prayer can be used as a plea bargaining action, an if You will then I will type deal or just help me get out of this crappy situation. Most prayers I used to offer up where just those things, a plea bargain basically.  A need that I was frantic for an answer or deliverance from. Over the last few months I have come to enjoy prayer. Only because something shifted in my mind about who I was praying to ...

Rain and tears have come to mean the something to me. Rain is cooling, refreshing, life giving and strength building. Tears, when finished being shed are life giving, refreshing, and strength giving. One waters our souls and one waters our land. Both will bring about new life and newness to weary life. I am in a time of tears. Not sorrowful tears or hurtful tears. My tears are tears of healing, love and strength. This journey I have stepped out into with God is just life giving. A friend told me a few weeks ago I needed to cry. To let tears fall. I could not cry, even though I tried to force them out. Then at my discipleship group we received news of a dear church family member passing and the tears started. I did stop them but God said, No, it is time to heal. Holy Spirit filled my body from head to toe and I was in His  presence at such peace. My heart cried out all the hurts, joys, worries and pain for a good long time. Holy Spirit’s presence was s...